open my eyes to the great lemon pies

sitting in CT class right now. Nothing more exciting than writing a Gant Chart plan for my video. Its so boring, i really dont like the design cycle that much. Life has been pretty good latley. Been talking to Gene alot. He understands that i dont want to date him, and he is so cool with it! he is such a good friend, i had the funniest convosation with him on facebook last night. I really want to see him before he goes on his Interim to hong kong. Lucky duck! 

Been talking to sid, alot. He has been calling me and texting me everyday. Its so nice to have a good old chatta with him. He asked me out but i said no. I have to say though, its the first time in my life that guys are actually starting to pay attention to me not just as a friend. It feels nice. and it feels even nicer to be able to turn around and say no, i feel like i have controlover my life, control over my heart. 

I have to write my OWE tonight. Its so boring and hard to write. But Gene said he will help me out with ideas. The girls volleyball game is today at the Swiss club. Im not playing but mom said that i can go along and support my friends. We are going to loose but still, its fun to watch and play with eachother. I cant wait until mr walker is back! im so happy he made a full recovery! 

going out on friday again. Its all us girls and a few guys, sid is coming, fancy that lol. Its going to be a pool party and me and tori are going to buy stuff on friday before everyone turns up. She wants to buy a b*a for me. And i think its a little weird that she is buying me one. But its so nice that she wants me to feel pretty. She is my best friend. I really dont know what i would do without her! 

BEST WEEKEND EVER! For the win!

had the best weekend of my life in singapore LEGIT! 

FRIDAY

friday was a pretty cool day at school. Did nothing. Talked alot. Tori jumped me.

Spanish detention was canceled for my friends so we went out straight away. Went to cheryl's. Big house! ate little corneto things. Went to taka. ate maccas chicken burger tasted like heaven. Met izzie, izzie loves meh :) . Sat around for ages waiting for dylan. waited.waited.waited.waited. Dylan showed up. Attacked Cheryl. Got red bull. went hyper. turned up @ sids.

AND THE NIGHT STARTED

sid is so nice, love him to bits. So indian oh gosh he is so indian! lol really funny guy, little perverted but dude, look past it. Sat around and attacked eachother. Alot of girls sitting around. A very happy Sid. Walked with cheryl, sid and this other guy that sid is mates with. 3 very big dogs and a really pretty night. i cuddled cheryl so much.

Dylan and Milly mysteriously dissapear. No one cares lol. hang around. Sid makes jokes about tori's b**b and i fall over. Get a call from Dylan saying omfg come to cheryls house NOW. We ditch sid. sid is sad. sid decides i am awsome and gets my number -.-*. Go to cheryls. and find . MATT AND MIKE! the coolest twins on earth. Hang with them, chat, attack, laugh, get tired. Go upstairs. sleep with cheryl and maria and have a good night rest.

SATA

cheryl me milly dylan and maria have toster strudel for breakfast om nom. NOM NOM. get dressed. Do tiny chat on twitter. Go to my place. Eat chicken wraps. Go to church. Meet with ellie. Love church. Eat pasta. buy choc. Go home. Cant go out T.t missed seeing sid. Its ok because i can see him again this friday! 

SUNDA

rents ditch me. Hang at home. finish my dress. take pics. sleep. finish hw. Chat with sid. chat with gene. skype with gene o.o. lots of fun. mom comes home. watch movie play game. sleeeep

WEEKENDS ARE SO MUCH FUN WITH FRIEEENDS! 

birthday in 15 days -.-

adolescence

i laugh at the world, i laugh at teenagers, i in particular laugh at guys. They can be so into you at one moment, and couldnt care less about you the next. Its age i suppose, but still, its such a pain to understand what is really going through peoples mind. Gene was so into me, Dylan so wanted us together. I didnt want it to happen and all it took was me not caring less and now they arnt at all fussed and Gene couldnt care less about me. Im not sad, im happy, estatic to have my male free carefree life back. Its comfortable and quiet and i dont have to worry to much about pleasing people to no end. 

This blog is just a update on that front. And i owe so much thanks to mell and her abusive behavior :) 

mind boggling

dylan came on friday, but she left right after dinner. Leaving me alone with Gene, its not the fact that it was just me and Gene that bothered me. It was the fact that she left. That she herself, would rather spend time with guys she hasn't met before, than hang out with me. It seems like her priorities are shit..

Anyways, i suppose that you cant really call it "hanging out" anymore. Me and Gene saw a movie that was based in the 1950's. I didnt say that it was my fav time in history, i was worried he would think i live in the past, just consider how i dress! haha. Well, the movie had been going on for about 15 mins and i was freezing so i bit my tounge to stop me from shivering. Then gene edged his hand closer to mine.. i did nothing, he did it again, i did nothing, then he just took my hand haha. I kinda looked at him and smiled, but then i though, hey Dylan knew that he would do this, what other things was she planning! Later on in the movie he put his arm around me. I knew what that ment, you know the "arm around girl, hold close, girl leans on guys chest, looks up and then guy kisses" im not that naive. So i just didnt lean on him. mwaha point one to the pie master! for the rest of the movie he held my hand, i was cool with that.. hands are just hands i guess.

We caught the mrt home together, he is really nice, good personality, friendly, computer person ( -.-) but generally he is someone i can get along with. But when i told mell, she was so cross, she scolded me man. What am i ment to do! i guess, i wouldnt go out with gene, but i want to hang out with him. He isnt as bad as he seems.

Dylan on the other hand, she broke my trust because she would rather spend time with guys, she also wants gene and i together, so yeh, its a little unfair and im going to talk to her so that i can tell her that whatever happens will go at my own pace and not hers. 

sick of class

just to yet y'all know im sick of class and i think it is abusive to make children stare at computer screens for more than half a day, thank you-

my eyes hurt, my back hurt, my nose itches..,

irritated at school, but im more than halfway through the day

gtta got to the IB coordinator soon BELH! 

anxious pie people

sometimes it nice to just blah though class and write a blog. Late night the boys arrived, they might be able to come to church and i would love it if they did, but it wouldnt kill me if they didnt, because it means that there is two more people that i need to look after. Iv done pretty much all my personal project and my homework, today at lunch i have a meeting with my IB coordinater about what classes i should take in Abu Dhabi, its a little nerve racking because i know that my grades arnt exactly tip top at the moment. I wasnt going to write this on my blog, but i though, this is my space so i can do whatever i want. I want to  keep honest on this blog, and just state the facts of what i am thinking about and what is going on in my life. Just over a month ago, my and my friends Dylan and Milly went to orchard to shop and eat. It was really fun, Dylan said that she was meeting a friend from SAS and invited me and Milly to go with her. We said yes. Gene is a year older than me, in year 11 and goes to SAS. He is really nice, we watched a movie and later on that night gene added me on facebook. I went to school the next day and talked to Dylan and the other girls, when Cheryl found out that i now knew gene, she got really pissed off and said that i shouldnt go anywhere near the guy. I asked why and im not going to type what she said on this blog ><. She hates Gene, and Dylan really likes gene as a mate. So, imagine my stress when Gene invited me to hang out with him. I thought about it for a while making a few excuses here and there. But finally i said  when Dylan said that she would go along with me to make sure that i felt comfortable. So, we organised it for the next friday, tommorrow. I was really excited about it, and even better still, i got cheryl support and though it took her a while, she is going to give gene a clean slate. so, all was well and fine. Until Dylan turned around the other day and said that she might not stay with me all friday, and that she might go out with her friends and then drop in on us to see how things are going. Now, i normally dont get angry about that type of thing, but this really pissed me off. She promised that she would stay with me and make sure i was ok, and she lied. her motives for me and gene are, interesting too. She see's us as an adorable couple and says that we should date. OK that is way way to far. Iv only met gene once and she is planning this? its so unfair, i feel really played by her. ah, never mind, i have the support of my other mates i guess.

if a had a monkey his name would be alfred

sometimes, i stand at the back of my condo and just look at the trees. Its one of the things that can make me relax, lame as it sounds. Latley, i have been so inspired to just pick up my sketch book and paint of sketch or to go on the computer and start working on something. Iv been writing heaps too. My journal must be tired of all the places that it is having to travel too these days. In all this chaos of life. I find myself peaceful in my own little bubble of holga coloring and 50's clothing. It makes me feel at home and for once, like i can be me. Iv been so eager to start sewing again too. All these ideas have been coming to mind and i cant help but act on them. My water color work has been improving too. Its almost impossible for me to explain the joy that comes to me when i take the time out of the day to just be inspired by life. Its like, calmness and peacefulness but with a adrenaline rush! it makes no sense. but i love it. its me , in my place, in my room.